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Post by Chelsea on Sept 24, 2006 18:58:58 GMT -5
This whole thing was killing Josh. It hurt him so much to know that he'd never be the one to ask Shannon to marry him. He would never have children with her. It hurt him so badly. He hated her right now but when he saw how upset she was, he couldn't help but want to make her feel better. He was so confused. He felt like he didn't mean anything to her at all. Josh just nodded and rubbed her back softly.
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Post by Jacqueline on Sept 24, 2006 19:13:29 GMT -5
He meant a lot to Shannon. She wanted to be the one to marry him, but it was all messed up now. She was so stupid.
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Post by Chelsea on Sept 24, 2006 19:15:30 GMT -5
Josh cuddled Shannon tightly. God he loved her so much. He kissed her forehead again. He hated seeing her like this. "I'm sorry Shan... I didn't mean to upset you like this..." he told her very quietly. He felt so guilty.
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Post by Jacqueline on Sept 24, 2006 19:19:37 GMT -5
It's not you're fault. Well.. maybe a little.. but it's also everything else. Shannon said, trying to think of something to say so that he wouldn't feel totally at fault for it.
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Post by Chelsea on Sept 24, 2006 19:22:18 GMT -5
Josh sighed deeply. "No. No it is my fault. I always hurt you like this. I always end up yelling at you about something and it isn't fair. I am so so so sorry Shannon." he told her softly. He felt terrible.
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Post by Jacqueline on Sept 24, 2006 19:33:12 GMT -5
It's okay. I'm not much better, I always give you things to get mad at me about. Shannon said. It wasn't totally Josh's fault.
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Post by Chelsea on Sept 24, 2006 19:36:15 GMT -5
"It's not even that I'm that mad. I'm just...I'm really upset and I'm scared." he said, quietly. Josh softly ran his fingers through Shannon's hair.
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Post by Jacqueline on Sept 24, 2006 19:42:28 GMT -5
I am too. I'm not ready to be a mom, I have no idea what to do, and I don't know how to tell people, it's just all so confusing and scary. What if everyone gets mad at me? Shannon said softly. She was terrified.
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Post by Chelsea on Sept 24, 2006 19:45:10 GMT -5
Josh sighed. "I dunno. I don't like this whole situation Shan. I'd be lying if I told you that it didn't bother me. This is killing me. I can't stand seeing you like this and I want you to have a good future. I wanted to...nevermind..." he said. He was going to say that he wanted to marry ehr but he couldn't tell her that now. She was confused enough as it was.
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Post by Jacqueline on Sept 24, 2006 20:19:20 GMT -5
I know you don't like it, you've made it kinda obvious. Shannon said, I have really screwed up my future haven't I? And what were going tosay? She asked softly.
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Post by Chelsea on Sept 24, 2006 20:26:40 GMT -5
Josh shook his head. "It doesn't matter..." he said softly. He didn't want to tell Shannon what he was about to say. It would just make things harder for her.
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Post by Jacqueline on Sept 24, 2006 20:34:21 GMT -5
Okay. Shannon said. She wished that Josh would tell her what he was going to say, but she wouldn't make him tell her if he didn't want to.
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Post by Chelsea on Sept 24, 2006 20:42:00 GMT -5
Josh kissed Shannon's forehead again and stood up. "C'mon. You better get home and tell your aunt. I'll come with you if you need me to." he told her gently.
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Post by Jacqueline on Sept 24, 2006 20:56:47 GMT -5
Shannon didn't want to tell her aunt, but she knew she had to. The longer she put it off the harder it would be to tell her too, and she obviously couldn't never tell her aunt because she might notice a baby living in the house. Okay. Shannon said. She didn't know if she wanted Josh with her when she told her aunt though, it might be kinda weird.
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Post by Chelsea on Sept 25, 2006 5:54:14 GMT -5
Josh wrapped his arm around her shoulders and started walking towards her aunt's house. He felt so weird around Shannon now but he knew that she needed him with everything she was going through.
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